Just another waste of time and effort, of flesh and bone
Caught in the numbing turmoil of everyday existence
Looking in a mirror reveals the husk of my former self
It's hard to believe I used to be happier
I would live in blissful unawareness
As if nothing could take me from the moment
Innocence seemed to last forever
I would find comfort in the light of day
And dream of vibrant meadows
As the summer breeze lulled me to sleep each night
Happiness was never out of reach
Little did I know of the storm that was waiting

The day reality stared me in the face
I saw the world for what it really was
A cesspool brimming with hate and sorrow
My blind optimism was my downfall
Now the joy has faded and I realize what I am
A slave to this unforgiving world
Living in fear of what the next day will bring
I wish I had seen it before it was too late
Each day feels impossible to endure
Each night I drown my despair in alcohol
Each night I hope for someone to hide me from the bitter truth
To take me back to days when I wasn't so fucked up