Lump inside my throat
Puts pressure to my chest
Keeps pushing and pushing
And make feel the guilt

Shortcuts taken again
But I still can't fill you up
I can't wait to get home
Can't wait to be alone

Got use to the bitter taste
Got used to you etching me up
I ignore the obvious
I don't even care

While I press my tongue
While I grind my teeth
I try not to lose it all
Not to lose control

You are a cure bringing cancer
Dissolving me into your heaven

Weird numbing power trip
100 million butterflies
Shape shifting stupid little joy
High speed emotion on adrenaline
Excitingly relaxing dream eater
Dimension 4 window
Ethereal gateway
Time bender
Room changer
Ecstatic shock

When I only saw the night
You made me see the stars
You absorbed me into your
Blissful sea of tar

I somehow feel like shit
For using you again

In the end I really do not care enough