Disappear from everyone
I hold so close to me
Fade away into the night
And hope it takes away the pain
If I fall asleep forever
For better or for worse
At least I won't be awake
To feel the guilt and regret
I always knew

I can't even cry
If I wanted to
And I'm sorry that I lie
When I talk to you

I don't remember
The last time I smiled
And meant it
I can't remember
The last time
I felt something real