I was just a kid but I learned much too fast
Found the internet way too young, a scar that would last
And you know I hate thinking someone else did this to me
But I had all the resources because of your enabling
And sometimes I wonder if I didn't hurt so bad
Would I have been more lovable to my mom and my dad?
If I went back in time to see six years old me
I'd say this shit does not get better this is who you're meant to be, and

I'm a monster so you say
And I do this on purpose anyway
I need to feel this pain
So I can try to crawl away when you say my name

Hold me down and scream at me
You said this is where I deserve to be
So keep pretending you love me
And I'll believe you although you never show it to me

Wow, you're such a quiet kid they all would say to me
Don't call me an old soul when I'm just unhappy
You treated me like an adult when I was still so young
You ask what you did wrong but you fucking knew it all along

I know that I was difficult or that's how you felt
But I was told that I was selfish when I needed fucking help
I remember when I lied to you, I ran away and hid
But you didn't had to hurt me, I was just a little kid
I was just a little kid
And now I'm still a little kid, and

I'm a monster so you say
And I do this on purpose anyway
I need to feel this pain
So I can try to crawl away when you say my name

Hold me down and scream at me
You said this is where I deserve to be
So keep pretending you love me
I'll believe you, I'll believe you

I'm a monster so you say
And I do this on purpose anyway
I need to feel this pain
So I can try to crawl away when you say my name

Hold me down and scream at me
You said this is where I deserve to be
So keep pretending you love me
I'll believe you but you never show it to me